Anger.
Disappointment.
Exhaustion.
Fear.
Worry.
Sadness.
Grief.
I've been feeling as though I need to make some significant changes in my life. I feel like I am circling this place where I try hard to 'do what's right', it drains me, I get overwhelmed and burn out, then I do it all over again.
My husband mentioned I've slipped away from my meditation practice.
A friend noticed I worry and check in more on my friends than many do on me.
My mom said to stop the chatter in my brain, as best I can.
Noted.
Yet I am still here, wondering about the root of it all.
Why am I feeling so unsettled?
I reach for gratitude.
I have so much to be thankful for.
I lean on love.
My husband and family are 100% holding me up.
I pray.
For patience, peace and so much more.
Yet still, I struggle.
So badly right now, I am struggling.
I love very deeply.
I think very deeply.
I hurt very deeply.
Right now I am so deeply unsettled.
Sometimes, I've noticed, there is no answer.
Only the wave.
Perhaps time.
A return to self-care
Or even some serious sleep to settle me down.
Just know that if you are feeling this way, I am too.
And our mental health matters.
So keep riding the wave.
I'll do the same.
Calm will come soon.
xo
I am Riding the wave too! We have had gone through too much this last year. So hard to focus on anything else. Today and yesterday I have said, screw the house work, I have decided to take some time and watch my shows that are recorded. Needed a break to be my best.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you prioritized self care. Sometimes we just need to give ourselves permission to just BE. Sending love ♡
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