Saturday, December 31, 2011

New Year, New Me!

Unbelievable to think the holiday season has come and gone. Our children were spoiled senseless, and I'm happy to report I received the one gift I really really wanted - a white gold locket, so I can carry my kids with me wherever I go. Very luck mama indeed!

My resolution for 2012 is simple:

Appreciate the beauty around me.
Love with incredible gusto.
Let the worries go.

As a working mom, I often find it difficult to slow down, to really enjoy my time playing with the kids - my logical mind is thinking laundry, dishes, phone calls. I hope that by appreciating the beauty around me - my kids, my husband, my family - I will do a much better job of really experiencing the moments right in front of me. Let's be honest, the laundry can wait.

Loving is something that comes easy to me. I happen to love many many people - friends, family, my kiddies and even some really special nephews and goddaughters :) Loving with gusto is different though, it will require me to really express to these important people HOW MUCH I love them, and WHY I love them. I'm really looking forward to this task.

Finally, I'm going to attempt (gulp) to let the worries go. For those who know me, this is going to be an incredible task as I've spent many hours spilling over the details of what may or may not be something important. I worry far too often about what others think and as most mamas can relate, I worry continuously about my kids. No small task here, but I'm counting on my husband to give the line 'Let it go' when I start rambling.

Today I've made the effort to consider the last twelve months, make a resolution and plan out some tactics to help me achieve success. Fingers crossed, we all know how easy resolutions are to keep!!

Saturday, December 17, 2011

We did it. We did it. We did it. YAH!

If you have a little one at home, you've likely danced around to the title track of this post. Both my kiddies - Nolan (three and half) and Brooklyn (one and a half) - absolutely adore Dora. She's smart, a confident decision maker, and she always reaches her final destination, despite the obstacles set before her.

Pretty great role model right?

Well these days I feel a little like Dora, as I just made the most agonizing (yet ultimately obvious) decision of my life. I crossed the troll bridge, fought through the angry forest, I even told swiper 'no swiping'. I really did though, as it was ultimately when my husband (Jay) and I interviewed a nanny as an alternative to full time day care that I realized with great certainty that the only woman capable of raising my children was me. Nice nanny, but not Mama.

I resigned my position this week as the Marketing & Communications Specialist for my local credit union. A position I've held for over four years. A position that saw me take two maternity leaves to birth and raise my two beautiful kiddies. A position that has ultimately resigned me right back to where I left off... at home, with my children.

Scariest and most exciting decision I've ever made.