Waiting for the perfect moment.
The perfect body.
The perfect amount of energy.
The perfect time.
I think sometimes I fell into a cycle of unworthiness in my own head.
Crazy how powerful our minds are.
I wasn't skinny enough.
Strong enough.
Fun enough.
Its not what moms say.
Or do.
Or what my friends say, or do.
Others are better at it than me.
Look better than me.
Should be doing those things, not me.
And this summer the cycle is slowly breaking wide open.
The amount of downtime our family has had so far is unprecedented.
We swim daily, sometimes two or three times in a day.
We have lazy mornings.
Time to read.
Less to do.
More time to just be, together.
It's helped me realize that perfect is now.
Right now.
That embracing life for exactly what it is now, is brilliant.
And gratitude overwhelms for all the right reasons.
Sometimes we are busy.
But right now, not so much.
And the gift of unbusy is just as special, perhaps even more so, than the gift of busy.
I'm realizing that unbusy is not lazy.
Its absolutely not.
It's a gift.
The flow of life.
The calm before life's next storm.
It's perfect.
And I'm not going to sit on the sidelines and miss another opportunity to embrace it.
I'm going to be the only mom in the pool.
The mom who models a love of reading.
The mom who doesn't feel guilty when dinner is grilled cheese and apples.
The woman who throws down a brilliant cannonball because she has nearly 30 years of practice in the same pool.
The woman who thinks less about her every move, and lives more fully.
The women who is done worrying about how she looks in a dang bathing suit.
Seriously done worrying about it.
A woman who loves harder by doing.
Who embraces unbusy.
Who rides this summer wave with gratitude.
Because it won't be long until the heat is gone.
The mom taxi is back in action.
Work becomes overwhelming.
And a new wave, called busy, calls me to change my stance and find new reasons to be happy.
All over again <3
#gratitude #summertime #lifelessons #unbusy
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